Month: May 2017

Good morning my most Wonderful World Wide Family! I love you all so very much! I am on a roll now with more frequent communication to you all, my family. Yeah! I am sitting at a coffee shop and wanted to begin my morning by writing to all of you.

Dear LORD God, we love You. We thank You that You have blessed us with another day in which we can worship You and spend time with You. We thank You that You desire to spend life with us. You created us to be Your eternal family. You then paid the Ultimate Price by sending Your Perfect Son Jesus Christ of Nazareth to die for us and to ensure that we all have equal access to this awesome life with You, LORD. It’s all about You.

I’m so sorry LORD when I/we fall short of the awesome life that You prepared for us from the beginning of time. I’m so sorry for the sin that is rampant in Your/our world. But, LORD, I am thankful that Your love is perfect  and that You alone are the Author and Finisher of our lives.

We may have started off badly, we may have had horrible things done to us, we may even be in a mess right now; but You will not leave us there LORD. You provide a way of escape for us. We can run to You as your children.

LORD protect us. Keep Your angels around us. Touch our hearts. Lead us by Your still waters and restore our souls. Cleanse our minds. Empty us of ourselves and fill us with You LORD. Prepare the hearts of Your children to receive Your WORD. We love You LORD. We worship You.

Raise up people with finances, LORD, who will pour into nations that need clean water, food, clothing, and medical care. If we all do at least a little, a lot can be done. Bless us to be a blessing to others, for You LORD.

Please protect those who are being persecuted for their faith and belief in You LORD. Protect all of their generations. Show Yourself miraculously to them, LORD. Let us all realize that this life here is so very temporary; and then there is eternity. Let us have a burning desire to spend eternity with You LORD.

We thank You in advance LORD. We love You and praise You. We ask this in the Precious Name of Jesus. Amen. Glory to God!

I noticed some errors in my last letter to you. I’m sorry. I try to proof read but I missed some. 🙁

Last night we had our potluck celebration for our last night of Bible College. Many will be back next semester but a few of us will be graduating. I left with mixed emotions. Sad that it is over and happy that I completed the Bachelor’s Program in Biblical Studies. I plan to continue my studies of the LORD forever!

I feel ecstatic for the life changing experience that I have been so blessed to have. My life has been totally transformed because of the teaching of the WORD of God. The Scripture says that The WORD is medicine! It has surely healed me and helped me to mature in the LORD.

His WORD has cleansed my spirit and soul; healed my mind, broken emotions and fractured personality. (This will be an ongoing process throughout my life, but I know that I am more than a conqueror in Christ Jesus!) Of course God’s WORD makes me more sensitive to the needs of others and to God’s desire for my life.

His WORD is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. His Holy Spirit leads me to the destiny and purpose that God created me for. Also, very importantly, God help’s me to victoriously win the war against my own worst enemy…me! God gives me wisdom! He says I have the Mind of Christ.

There is an awesome domino effect of this transformation that God has done in my life.  From my life forward to all my generations; we shall serve the LORD! They are blessed for a thousand generations. I speak forth life and ‘VICTORY in the LORD’ for all of my generations. As for me and my house; WE SHALL SERVE THE LORD!

Do they all live like this right now in the natural? This is not always evident. However, God tells us in His WORD the Bible; to speak those things that are not as though they are. I most definitely will follow this TRUTH of GOD! I will do the spiritual warfare that God tells me to do. I will always fast and pray for them, and speak God’s WORD of life over them. Their eternal lives depend on it.

I would like to take this opportunity to share how God healed me and SET ME FREE from deep, dark depression, grief and isolation. This has been a journey. Some aspects happened immediately and miraculously, some took longer. Growth is ongoing.

All of my healing happened because of the LORD, His Holy Spirit, His WORD and tenacious faith in Him and His Truth. The greatest and most rapid transformation happened during Bible College. All Glory to God! I am eternally thankful to all of our Teachers, Administrators, Pastor Dean of the Bible College and Senior Pastor.

Many years ago I was in the deepest, darkest depression and grief over the loss of my husband. I was in a state of shock about how I was going to take care of my children and keep my mind and emotions intact.

I was so very dependent on going to church, hearing God’s WORD and going to  a Single Parent’s Bible Study. The church I was going to at that time was an awesome church. They did not often seem to have a Prophetic WORD of God spoken in the service. I am not even sure whether that particular denomination would have spoken a lot about this.

BUT GOD!…All of a sudden I heard the Pastor totally change what he was preaching about and he began to be used as an oracle of God. He spoke only to me about what God had personally just told me the very night before when I was at home praying to Him. It was as if the whole world disappeared and it was just God and me in that church.

The Pastor said,  “There is someone in this church right now who takes medicine to go to sleep and medicine to wake up and more than one antidepressant medication. God is telling you right now that you need to stop and He will heal you!” The Pastor then continued on with his sermon as if this had never taken place. I never took any of those medications again. We serve a MIGHTY GOD!   Glory to God!

I previously mentioned that there was a mighty woman of God at the job that God had given me after my prior job had closed down. She was also a nurse. God used her to speak Words of life into my spirit.  (The healing balm of Gilead.)

They used to call her the “WORD Woman”. I could call her every time when I  was overwhelmed by life and she would read just the right Bible verse to me. She too was going through devastations of her own and was raising young children.

I like the saying: “God doesn’t choose the qualified, He qualifies those whom He chooses.” This is so true and awesome because it is not about us anyway. It is all about Him!

It is amazing to me that I am even writing this blog that Holy Spirit taught me how to create. I think that when I can pour out some of my life into others and share how God has healed me; I make more space for God to pour His life into me. He gives life exceedingly abundantly above all that we could ask or imagine.

I still seemed to experience some underlying degree of grief, depression, shame and isolation for well over a decade. One night I went to another church and the Pastor there discerned that my situation had become a deeper type of spiritual attack. This is called a stronghold or bondage.

We have a very real enemy of our soul, satan; who roams about like a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour. His entire goal is to steal, kill and destroy; our lives, our families, our hope, our faith, our minds, our emotions, our bodies, our belief in and  relationship with the One and Only True God the Creator of the Universe.

This Pastor prayed for me. She spoke God’s healing WORD over me. She rebuked the stronghold, and the bondage and following spirits of darkness off of my life. I have never experienced grief, depression and isolation like that since that day when she prayed. The grief was completely gone. Praise God so much!

Now about the isolation and shame. I am so happy and thankful to God to say that I was healed from these last year in Bible College. Prior to this I went through life not really letting people in emotionally.

I was able to perform my roles in life well. It was as if I was an actress on the stage of life. I totally loved and engaged with my family and friends that God had blessed me with; but I would never let outsiders in and never ever talk about suicide.

Then, last year, God told me  that it was time to stop this charade and be healed so that He could use me to fulfill the destiny and purpose that HE created me for. The opportunity came up to share about what God had done in my life with our Bible College group in Chapel.

The LORD opened this opportunity for me. I spoke and shared everything about the  events that had previously taken place in my life that night. God has been healing me and leading me to do awesome things for Him ever since.

He taught me how to create this blog. Trust me, in the natural I was  “computer illiterate”. (I still have a lot to learn, that’s what grandchildren are for.)

Well I had better go for now. I love you all so very much. I am so thankful to God for anyone who may be able to be helped by anything that I can share about our Awesome God.  Living this life in a personal, intimate relationship with the LORD is amazing. I pray that you could all experience this life here with God and for all eternity.

Until we get to talk again, God bless you and your families always and keep His angels around you to protect you. I love you so much and most importantly, Jesus loves you!

HEBREWS 12:2    LOOKING UNTO JESUS THE AUTHOR AND FINISHER OF OUR FAITH: WHO FOR THE JOY THAT WAS SET BEFORE HIM ENDURED THE CROSS, DESPISING THE SHAME, AND IS SET DOWN AT THE RIGHT HAND OF THE THRONE OF GOD. (kjv)

1 CORINTHIANS 10:13    NO TEMPTATION HAS OVERTAKEN YOU EXCEPT WHAT IS COMMON TO MANKIND. AND GOD IS FAITHFUL; HE WILL NOT LET YOU BE TEMPTED BEYOND WHAT YOU CAN BEAR. BUT WHEN YOU ARE TEMPTED, HE WILL ALSO PROVIDE A WAY OUT SO THAT YOU CAN ENDURE IT. (niv)

PSALM 23    THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD: I SHALL NOT WANT. HE MAKES ME TO LIE DOWN IN GREEN PASTURES: HE LEADS ME BESIDE THE STILL WATERS. HE RESTORES MY SOUL; HE LEADS ME IN THE PATHS OF RIGHTEOUSNESS FOR HIS NAME’S SAKE. YEA, THOUGH I WALK THROUGH THE VALLEY OF THE SHADOW OF DEATH, I WILL FEAR NO EVIL; FOR YOU ARE WITH ME; YOUR ROD AND YOUR STAFF THEY COMFORT ME. YOU PREPARE A TABLE FOR ME IN THE PRESENCE OF MY ENEMIES; YOU ANOINT MY HEAD WITH OIL; MY CUP RUNS OVER. SURELY GOODNESS AND MERCY SHALL FOLLOW ME ALL THE DAYS OF MY LIFE; I WILL DWELL IN THE HOUSE OF THE LORD FOREVER. (nkjv)

PSALM 119:105    YOUR WORD IS A LAMP FOR MY FEET, A LIGHT ON MY PATH (niv)

JEREMIAH 8:22   IS THERE NO BALM IN GILEAD? IS THERE NO PHYSICIAN THERE? WHY THEN HAS THE HEALTH OF THE DAUGHTER OF MY PEOPLE NOT BEEN RESTORED. (esv)

DEUTRONOMY 7:9    KNOW THEREFORE THAT THE LORD YOUR GOD IS GOD; HE IS THE FAITHFUL GOD, KEEPING HIS COVENANT OF LOVE TO A THOUSAND GENERATIONS OF THOSE WHO LOVE HIM AND KEEP HIS COMMANDMENTS (niv)

1 CORINTHIANS 2: 14-16    BUT THE NATURAL MAN DOES NOT RECEIVE THE THINGS OF THE SPIRIT OF GOD, FOR THEY ARE FOOLISHNESS TO HIM; NOR CAN THEY KNOW THEM BECAUSE THEY ARE SPIRITUALLY DISCERNED. BUT HE WHO IS SPIRTUAL JUDGES ALL THINGS, YET HE HIMSELF IS RIGHTLY JUDGED BY NO ONE.   FOR WHO HAS KNOWN THE MIND OF THE LORD THAT HE MAY INSTRUCT  HIM? BUT WE HAVE THE MIND OF CHRIST.

ROMANS 4:17  ….CALL THOSE THINGS WHICH ARE NOT AS THOUGH THEY WERE.

EPHESIANS 3:20    NOW TO HIM WHO IS ABLE TO DO FAR MORE ABUNDANTLY THAN ALL THAT WE ASK OR THINK, ACCORDING TO THE POWER AT WORK WITHIN US.

Good Morning my Most Wonderful World Wide Family. I love you all so very much. It is so awesome to be able to speak with you again and so soon. It is a beautiful day here as I sit and write to you. The birds are singing a beautiful melody, there is the smell of honeysuckle and jasmine in the air as well as a gentle breeze and I get the privilege of sharing with  you about our most Awesome God. Life doesn’t get any better than this.

Dear LORD God Almighty, Maker of Heaven and Earth and everyone and everything in both; thank You that You  love us so much that You want this personal and intimate relationship with us. We love You LORD. We praise Your Holy Name. We thank You LORD for Who You are; the Omnipresent, Omniscient, Omnipotent God. We thank You that You want to do life with us. We thank You that You want to be the Center of our lives LORD and You take responsibility for caring for us and leading us and guiding us into all truth.

We thank You that You did not create us as mindless robots but You gave us free will to choose. In doing this LORD, You took a chance that some would not choose to love You as LORD of their lives and You honor their choices. But You sent Your Only Begotten, Beloved,  Perfect, Sinless Son-Jesus Christ of Nazareth as Your Perfect Sacrifice to save us all LORD. There are not words that can be uttered that can begin to express the magnitude of our heartfelt and spirit-felt gratitude to You LORD.

And LORD, for those who do not yet know You or accept You as LORD of their lives; we pray for them and their salvation. You say that the Harvest is plentiful but the laborers are few. We ask that You raise up Your co-laborers LORD. Raise up Your leaders, Your warriors of Your love and truth. Raise up this generation LORD, for such a time as this, to bring You glory, pleasure and precious souls.

Keep Your angels around all of these, Your people LORD. We love You. We praise You. We exalt Your Holy Name. We thank You in advance LORD. In Jesus’ Precious Name, Amen. Glory to God!

I thought today that I would share another one of my testimonies. I have so many. God has been so very good to me every day of my life. When I first started writing to you, I chuckled to myself because I thought; ‘if nothing else becomes of writing this blog; people can at least say’- “I thought my life was bad until I heard about hers. Now I feel much better that my life isn’t so bad!”

I know now that this couldn’t be further from the truth. The reason that I say this is because even though I have definitely been through some challenges and experienced many devastations;  God has always been true to His WORD, (of course). We read in  ROMANS 8:28    AND WE KNOW THAT IN ALL THINGS GOD WORKS FOR THE GOOD OF THOSE WHO LOVE HIM, WHO HAVE BEEN CALLED ACCORDING TO HIS PURPOSE. 

I am going to share about the losses of homes, cars and material things. At the time that my husband passed away by suicide; we had 2 homes, the “his and hers luxury cars” and possessions. One of the homes was to me, like a mini mansion in one of the most prominent of neighborhoods. It had a multiple car garage, back house, maids quarters, built in barbecue, large pool, jaccuzzi, fountain and running stream throughout the extremely large plot of  land and a dog house as big as some garages. I was very thankful to God for blessing us immensely.

This all came at a cost with a first and second mortgage on one home and the same on the other and the need for both of us to work more than one job each to be able to afford this lifestyle. This was my husband’s dream. Mine was family. In a moment of time they were both shattered. MATTHEW 6:9    DO NOT LAY UP FOR YOURSELVES TREASURES ON EARTH, WHERE MOTH AND RUST DESTROY AND WHERE THIEVES BREAK IN AND STEAL. 

The first thing that happened during this devastating time was that the previous owner of the large home, (who held the 2nd mortgage), came to my house shortly after the death. He offered to take my money to the bank and pay the mortgages for me since I was in no condition to leave the house and they were due. Well I never saw that money again and the mortgage wasn’t paid.

The second house had renters in it who said that unless I signed some paperwork, they would stop paying rent and let my house go into foreclosure. I signed the paperwork, they refused to pay rent anyway and took over the home after it went into foreclosure. So now we are actually homeless. Some cars and possessions are gone also.

At this time in my life, I was trying to hold onto my sanity and be strong for my young children. I failed at both. Only because of  the Grace of God was I able to keep my sanity.

One day the LORD showed me where to go for a drive to look for a home. I saw a new gated community with houses for sale and a sign that said they did their own financing. I myself had no previous knowledge  about how to go about financing a home. I went and talked to them, did the paperwork and waited the necessary time to hear if myself and my children had gotten the home.

The LORD gave me this scripture:  JOSHUA 1:3    EVERY PLACE THAT THE SOLE OF YOUR FOOT TREADS, I HAVE GIVEN IT TO YOU… So. I went every day to that new and beautiful home in that pretty gated community and I walked around it saying this Scripture out loud.  Even though I was broken mentally, spiritually, emotionally, and physically exhausted from almost non-stop crying; I clung onto God’s WORD that He had given me. Within weeks I had gotten this brand new home and was moving in. PRAISE GOD SO MUCH!! You could not even begin to imagine the joy that I had from the LORD.

Due to deep depression and grief, I was also on disability from work at this time. The job later closed. After being at this job for over 15 years; I was actually now without employment.  Can you believe that God worked out the fact that I was now unemployed at the same time that I was going through all of this trauma?  Of course He did! For His Glory and my good! Glory to God!

I now had to go out searching for a job. I had never searched for a job after Nursing School. I went to one hospital and I got hired as a new graduate and they trained me and I stayed there all of my career until this time. But…because I had to go and search for a job; I had to do my best every day to pull myself together, dress up, get out of the house and go look for a new job. I didn’t have time to be depressed and lay around and do nothing. I had children to take care of.

I was only able to do that by God’s grace and mercy. I was deeply depressed but I had to postpone my sadness and emotions this until I got back home. God got me a great job and God completely healed me from my depression.  (These are all other testimonies that I will gladly share in the future.) The best thing about the job that God blessed me with was that He had strategically placed the best Christian woman I had ever met right there at that job and she spoke the WORD of GOD to me every day and she prayed relentlessly for me and my family.

The reason I gladly share my stories is because in God’s WORD, the BIBLE it is written in  ECCLESIASTES 1:9    WHAT HAS BEEN WILL BE AGAIN, WHAT HAS BEEN DONE WILL BE DONE AGAIN; THERE IS NOTHING NEW UNDER THE SUN.  This means to me that their are other people who have either gone through what I went through or unfortunately will go through what I have gone through. If I can be a little glimmer of hope and more importantly if I can lead someone to the HOPE of GLORY, Jesus Christ; I will lovingly share my testimonies.

Without GOD, JESUS, HIS HOLY SPIRIT and the BIBLE- THE LIVING INERRANT WORD OF GOD, Christian friends that God sent into my life, and the church I went to; I can’t even imagine what would have become of me. I had never experienced such devastation……..More testimonies to come in the future.  Glory to God!

Well I’d better go for now. Until we get to talk again I love you all so very much and most importantly Jesus loves you. God bless you always and keep His angels around you and your families for all generations.

Hi my most Wonderful World Wide Family! I love you all so very much. You are awesome. I have missed you a lot! Again, I can’t believe how much time has passed since the last time we spoke. I am so sorry that I didn’t get a chance to say hello. But…..with God’s help and a whole lot of praying and fasting, I finished the Bachelor’s Program in Biblical Studies. Yeah!! Five years; imagine that. (That includes going through the AA program first.) What an awesome way to spend 5 yrs, learning about the LORD. I am going to go on learning about the LORD forever. Master’s Program, here I come!

Dear LORD God Almighty, Maker of Heaven and earth, Thank you for this moment in time to come to You to praise You and to thank You. We love You LORD. Thank You for loving us. Thank You that You created us to be Your family members for all eternity LORD. Thank You that You use us to show Your perfect love to the whole world. Thank You that You Provide for us (as Jehovah Jireh the LORD our Provider),  so that we in turn can help others. We get the privilege of being Your distribution centers LORD; as well as Your scribes, Your oracles and Your heart and hands extended to a hurting people.

Thank You that You are always with us and You never ever leave us nor forsake us LORD. Thank You that You say You are the same yesterday, today and forever. In a world that is unstable You are the constant. You are constantly stable. You make us stable. We in turn can offer Your stability to others. It’s all about You LORD.

Thank You LORD that You give us day and night, water and land, animals and birds, flowers and trees, minds to think and hearts to love, ears to hear and mouths to speak. We speak forth Your WORD, LORD, words of life and not words that hurt or tear down. We speak Your TRUTH that Supercedes fact.

Thank You that You so loved us that You gave Your Only Begotten Son, Jesus Christ, that whosoever shall believe in Him shall not perish but shall have eternal life. Thank You Jesus for dying for us and taking away our sins so that we can be the Righteousness of God in You LORD.

Draw us unto You LORD. Lead us, guide us, show us the destiny and purpose that You created us for. Give us Your Dunamis Power from Your Holy Spirit. The same Holy Spirit that raised Jesus from the dead. Keep Your angels around these, Your people. Give grace and mercy to those who are being persecuted for You LORD. Bless them supernaturally LORD.  We thank You in advance LORD. We love You and praise You. In Jesus Precious Name Amen.

We got the opportunity to perform a “Mock Trial skit for the Defense of Christianity” for our last day of class in Bible College. It was awesome. God allowed us to be used by Him to bring Him glory and to speak forth His WORD, the Bible, to those who may not otherwise know Him or His WORD. We got to do this by performing this time.

There are so many ways to “speak forth God’s WORD to the world.” We can live our lives as a walking epistle for the LORD. We can share the Bible. We can preach or listen to Preachers. We can share testimonies and pray for people. We can go to church and Bible studies. We can go into the streets and street witness. We can go to Bible College! We can help hurting people in their times of dire need. People can see God in us by His Pure Love that shines through us. We can be vulnerable and honest in our own lives and not pretend that we have it all together; thus showing others that we all need God.

It was intense learning about multiple different religions and understanding their beliefs. We also learned ways that we could share with people of other religions; Who this Jesus Christ of Nazareth really is. He is the LORD and Savior of the whole world and the Only Way to God the Father and to spend eternity with God in Heaven. This was our study in ‘Apologetics’, the branch of theology concerned with the defense or proof of Christianity.

We learned that Hindus and Buddhists believe they have to go through thousands  or millions of lives of reincarnation to make up for the karma of the previous life until they are are finally set free, called moksha and joined to an impersonal god called brahma. During those lives they may come back as a person, an animal or an inanimate object. There is no evidence to back up this belief.

I am very thankful that as a Christian I know that I can never do enough good works to “earn” eternal life in Heaven with God; (God the Father, God the Son= Jesus and God the Holy Spirit = the One Triune God.) It is the ultimate free gift from God given by His mercy and Grace. (Grace has a name and His name is Jesus Christ.) Christianity is not a religion. It is a personal intimate relationship with the One and Only True God, the Creator of the Universe.

That is why God sent His Only Son Jesus Christ to die a horrific death to take away the sins of the world so that we can be forgiven and made righteous by His death. Jesus then arose, was resurrected, lived among His followers and was touched by them and ate with them and shared life with them for 40 days after His death.  Jesus was seen by multitudes of eyewitnesses after His death.

He then ascended into Heaven and sent us His Holy Spirit-the Paraklete=the Comforter Who leads and guides us into all TRUTH. There is so much historical evidence to back up Christianity. I will share it with you over time. (I will have time to share and write more often now that I am a graduate! Yeah!)

DEUTERONOMY 31:6    BE STRONG AND COURAGEOUS. DO NOT BE AFRAID OR TERRIFIED BECAUSE OF THEM, FOR THE LORD YOUR GOD GOES WITH YOU; HE WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU.

JUDE 1:24-25    NOW TO HIM WHO IS ABLE TO KEEP YOU FROM STUMBLING AND TO PRESENT YOU BLAMELESS BEFORE THE PRESENCE OF HIS GLORY WITH GREAT JOY, TO THE ONLY  GOD, OUR SAVIOR, THROUGH JESUS CHRIST OUR LORD, BE GLORY, MAJESTY, DOMINION AND AUTHORITY, BEFORE ALL TIME AND NOW AND FOREVER, AMEN.

PSALM 116:8-9    FOR YOU HAVE DELIVERED MY SOUL FROM DEATH, MY EYES FROM TEARS, MY FEET FROM STUMBLING; I WILL WALK BEFORE THE LORD IN THE LAND OF THE LIVING.

     MATTHEW 28:5     THE ANGEL SAID TO THE WOMEN, “DO NOT BE AFRAID. I KNOW THAT YOU ARE LOOKING FOR JESUS, WHO HAS BEEN CRUCIFIED. HE IS NOT HERE. HE HAS RISEN FROM THE DEAD AS HE SAID HE WOULD.” 

2 CORINTHIANS 5:21    FOR GOD MADE HIM WHO KNEW NO SIN TO BE SIN FOR US, THAT WE MIGHT BECOME THE RIGHTEOUSNESS OF GOD IN HIM. 

Well I should go for now. It was so awesome talking with all of you again. I love you all so very much and even more importantly-Jesus loves you!