Good morning my most Wonderful World Wide Family. I love you all so very much. I have been away spending some special alone time with the LORD. (Yes that means without Chihuahuas for a few days-I do miss them.) I wanted to write to you again before too many days pass.
Dear LORD God, Creator of the Universe, we come to You today with praise and worship for Who You are and Whose we are. As the lyrics state in the song: You are the Good Good Father that’s Who You are; and we are loved by You, that’s who we are. Thank You that You love us. You not only created us; You also want to do life with us. You are with us in the midst of any and all of the devastation that we face. You are a very Present Help in times of trouble.
Thank You that You loved us so much that You gave Your Only Beloved, Begotten Son Jesus Christ to die a horrendous death for us. So that we can choose Jesus Christ as our LORD and Savior and live for eternity with You in Heaven. You know the gripping pain that we feel over the loss of our loved ones. You were there to feel the pain of Your Son while He was being crucified on the cross for us.
LORD please protect all of these, Your children for all of their generations. Heal their hurts LORD. Cover them with Your Grace and Mercy. Let them feel Your Presence. Keep Your angels around them please LORD. LORD please restore and revive and heal Texas, Florida, California, Puerto Rico, Japan and every where else and all of the lives, communities, cities, states, and countries that have been devastated. We ask this in Jesus Name and we thank You in advance.
I had thought back to this one time in my life when I was feeling unappreciated at my place of employment no matter how much I gave and how hard I worked. This caused me to experience very low self esteem.
I had noticed this opening for an alternate position at another place of employment. I thought that I could do this in addition to my current job. I thought this would be a great answer to prayer. I thought this would help build up my self esteem by doing a great job at this new place of employment and showing them how valuable I am.
I applied and got the job. I tried hard and learned what I needed to learn to be proficient during my orientation. I made myself available whenever they needed me to be. This company was a privately owned company.
Within a couple of months the owner told me that she would no longer need me. I was emotionally devastated. I had counted on this new job to help lift up my self esteem that my other job was destroying. Now I am not wanted. Again!
About a month later the owner said that she could use me again. (Emphasis on the words “use me”.) I felt a little better. There was a little glimmer of hope that my self esteem might improve now. They must have noticed that I have some worth. By now I sure didn’t feel like I did.
That quickly came and went. The owner once again said she no longer needed me. I didn’t even respond to her at that point. This was all too painful. I was crushed. I felt so disposable. I have actually felt pretty disposable much of my life.
I had been sharing what had happened to me with some Christian friends and asked them to pray for me. Then I was in a prayer meeting at church one night and I felt in my spirit that the LORD was clearly telling me that He did not want me to have that position. He knew, (of course He knew), that I wanted that position so that I could build up my oh so fractured self esteem.
The LORD told me that I am to have my hope in Him. I don’t need “self esteem”. It’s not at all about me in the first place. It is all about Jesus and He esteems me so highly that He sacrificed His Own Life for me and for you.
Once again, the LORD healed me from my hurt and He began a new process of greatly needed life long recovery. He has taught me that no matter what people do; He is always faithful. He can always be trusted. He is always the Answer to everything I ever need. He is Awesome. Glory to God!
JOHN 3:16 FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD THAT HE GAVE HIS ONE AND ONLY SON, THAT WHOSOEVER BELIEVES IN HIM SHALL NOT PERISH BUT HAVE ETERNAL LIFE. (niv)
I CORINTHIANS 1:9 GOD IS FAITHFUL, BY WHOM YOU WERE CALLED INTO THE FELLOWSHIP OF HIS SON, JESUS CHRIST OUR LORD. (nkjv)
LUKE 16:15 AND HE SAID TO THEM, “YOU ARE THOSE WHO JUSTIFY YOURSELVES IN THE SIGHT OF MEN, BUT GOD KNOWS YOUR HEARTS; FOR THAT WHICH IS HIGHLY ESTEEMED AMONG MEN IS DETESTABLE IN THE SIGHT OF GOD”. (nas)
Well I have to go for now. Until we talk again please remember that I love you all so very much and most importantly, Jesus loves you! God bless you all. I will always be praying for you.