Good Morning my Most Wonderful World Wide Family. I love you all so very much. It is so awesome to be able to speak with you again and so soon. It is a beautiful day here as I sit and write to you. The birds are singing a beautiful melody, there is the smell of honeysuckle and jasmine in the air as well as a gentle breeze and I get the privilege of sharing with you about our most Awesome God. Life doesn’t get any better than this.
Dear LORD God Almighty, Maker of Heaven and Earth and everyone and everything in both; thank You that You love us so much that You want this personal and intimate relationship with us. We love You LORD. We praise Your Holy Name. We thank You LORD for Who You are; the Omnipresent, Omniscient, Omnipotent God. We thank You that You want to do life with us. We thank You that You want to be the Center of our lives LORD and You take responsibility for caring for us and leading us and guiding us into all truth.
We thank You that You did not create us as mindless robots but You gave us free will to choose. In doing this LORD, You took a chance that some would not choose to love You as LORD of their lives and You honor their choices. But You sent Your Only Begotten, Beloved, Perfect, Sinless Son-Jesus Christ of Nazareth as Your Perfect Sacrifice to save us all LORD. There are not words that can be uttered that can begin to express the magnitude of our heartfelt and spirit-felt gratitude to You LORD.
And LORD, for those who do not yet know You or accept You as LORD of their lives; we pray for them and their salvation. You say that the Harvest is plentiful but the laborers are few. We ask that You raise up Your co-laborers LORD. Raise up Your leaders, Your warriors of Your love and truth. Raise up this generation LORD, for such a time as this, to bring You glory, pleasure and precious souls.
Keep Your angels around all of these, Your people LORD. We love You. We praise You. We exalt Your Holy Name. We thank You in advance LORD. In Jesus’ Precious Name, Amen. Glory to God!
I thought today that I would share another one of my testimonies. I have so many. God has been so very good to me every day of my life. When I first started writing to you, I chuckled to myself because I thought; ‘if nothing else becomes of writing this blog; people can at least say’- “I thought my life was bad until I heard about hers. Now I feel much better that my life isn’t so bad!”
I know now that this couldn’t be further from the truth. The reason that I say this is because even though I have definitely been through some challenges and experienced many devastations; God has always been true to His WORD, (of course). We read in ROMANS 8:28 AND WE KNOW THAT IN ALL THINGS GOD WORKS FOR THE GOOD OF THOSE WHO LOVE HIM, WHO HAVE BEEN CALLED ACCORDING TO HIS PURPOSE.
I am going to share about the losses of homes, cars and material things. At the time that my husband passed away by suicide; we had 2 homes, the “his and hers luxury cars” and possessions. One of the homes was to me, like a mini mansion in one of the most prominent of neighborhoods. It had a multiple car garage, back house, maids quarters, built in barbecue, large pool, jaccuzzi, fountain and running stream throughout the extremely large plot of land and a dog house as big as some garages. I was very thankful to God for blessing us immensely.
This all came at a cost with a first and second mortgage on one home and the same on the other and the need for both of us to work more than one job each to be able to afford this lifestyle. This was my husband’s dream. Mine was family. In a moment of time they were both shattered. MATTHEW 6:9 DO NOT LAY UP FOR YOURSELVES TREASURES ON EARTH, WHERE MOTH AND RUST DESTROY AND WHERE THIEVES BREAK IN AND STEAL.
The first thing that happened during this devastating time was that the previous owner of the large home, (who held the 2nd mortgage), came to my house shortly after the death. He offered to take my money to the bank and pay the mortgages for me since I was in no condition to leave the house and they were due. Well I never saw that money again and the mortgage wasn’t paid.
The second house had renters in it who said that unless I signed some paperwork, they would stop paying rent and let my house go into foreclosure. I signed the paperwork, they refused to pay rent anyway and took over the home after it went into foreclosure. So now we are actually homeless. Some cars and possessions are gone also.
At this time in my life, I was trying to hold onto my sanity and be strong for my young children. I failed at both. Only because of the Grace of God was I able to keep my sanity.
One day the LORD showed me where to go for a drive to look for a home. I saw a new gated community with houses for sale and a sign that said they did their own financing. I myself had no previous knowledge about how to go about financing a home. I went and talked to them, did the paperwork and waited the necessary time to hear if myself and my children had gotten the home.
The LORD gave me this scripture: JOSHUA 1:3 EVERY PLACE THAT THE SOLE OF YOUR FOOT TREADS, I HAVE GIVEN IT TO YOU… So. I went every day to that new and beautiful home in that pretty gated community and I walked around it saying this Scripture out loud. Even though I was broken mentally, spiritually, emotionally, and physically exhausted from almost non-stop crying; I clung onto God’s WORD that He had given me. Within weeks I had gotten this brand new home and was moving in. PRAISE GOD SO MUCH!! You could not even begin to imagine the joy that I had from the LORD.
Due to deep depression and grief, I was also on disability from work at this time. The job later closed. After being at this job for over 15 years; I was actually now without employment. Can you believe that God worked out the fact that I was now unemployed at the same time that I was going through all of this trauma? Of course He did! For His Glory and my good! Glory to God!
I now had to go out searching for a job. I had never searched for a job after Nursing School. I went to one hospital and I got hired as a new graduate and they trained me and I stayed there all of my career until this time. But…because I had to go and search for a job; I had to do my best every day to pull myself together, dress up, get out of the house and go look for a new job. I didn’t have time to be depressed and lay around and do nothing. I had children to take care of.
I was only able to do that by God’s grace and mercy. I was deeply depressed but I had to postpone my sadness and emotions this until I got back home. God got me a great job and God completely healed me from my depression. (These are all other testimonies that I will gladly share in the future.) The best thing about the job that God blessed me with was that He had strategically placed the best Christian woman I had ever met right there at that job and she spoke the WORD of GOD to me every day and she prayed relentlessly for me and my family.
The reason I gladly share my stories is because in God’s WORD, the BIBLE it is written in ECCLESIASTES 1:9 WHAT HAS BEEN WILL BE AGAIN, WHAT HAS BEEN DONE WILL BE DONE AGAIN; THERE IS NOTHING NEW UNDER THE SUN. This means to me that their are other people who have either gone through what I went through or unfortunately will go through what I have gone through. If I can be a little glimmer of hope and more importantly if I can lead someone to the HOPE of GLORY, Jesus Christ; I will lovingly share my testimonies.
Without GOD, JESUS, HIS HOLY SPIRIT and the BIBLE- THE LIVING INERRANT WORD OF GOD, Christian friends that God sent into my life, and the church I went to; I can’t even imagine what would have become of me. I had never experienced such devastation……..More testimonies to come in the future. Glory to God!
Well I’d better go for now. Until we get to talk again I love you all so very much and most importantly Jesus loves you. God bless you always and keep His angels around you and your families for all generations.