Hello my most Wonderful World Wide Family. I love you all so very much. I just noticed the last date that I wrote to you all and it has been a month. (A short February month, but still a month.) I can’t believe it. I have missed you all a lot. I am so happy to be writing to you. I cannot even imagine what I have been doing every day that would allow so many days to have passed without communicating with you.
Dear LORD God Almighty, Maker of Heaven and earth, we come to You with our praise and worship. We love You LORD. You are Amazing, You are Holy, You are worthy to be praised. You are LORD of lords, King of kings, Magistrate of magistrates; the One and Only Great Potentate.
Thank You LORD that You want to do life with us. You want to care for us and teach us and guide us. You want to provide for us as Jehovah Jireh, the LORD our Provider. You heal us and give us Your Divine Health and Healing as Jehovah Rapha. Thank You Jehovah Nissi that You are the Banner over us all and You protect us and all of our generations. Thank You for Your angels that You send to minister to us. We are never alone.
You give us Your Peace that passes understanding as Jehovah Shalom. We need Your Peace LORD, in this world in which we live. We need Your love to fill us to overflowing so we can love our fellow brothers and sisters, who are all over this entire world. We want the best for them regardless of race, color, nationality, beliefs and culture.
We know that the best for this entire world is You, Jesus Christ of Nazareth. LORD call all of these, Your people unto You before You return again and before they take their last breath. Let them know that You are the Only Way, the Truth and the Life and no one comes to the Father God except through You. You love us too much to leave us where we are. You call all men, women and children to come to You. Thank You in advance LORD. In Jesus’ Name we pray. Amen. Glory to God!
JOHN 14:6 JESUS ANSWERED, “I AM THE WAY AND THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE. NO ONE COMES TO THE FATHER EXCEPT THROUGH ME.” (niv)
JOHN 10:9 I AM THE DOOR. IF ANYONE ENTERS BY ME, HE WILL BE SAVED AND WILL GO IN AND OUT AND FIND PASTURE (esv)
I will be returning to work pretty soon, after being off for many months due to surgeries. It was a real blessing to be able to have this time off of work. I have never had this much time off in my entire career. In fact, I had not had any vacation at all for almost 3 years. Instead I worked double shifts and extra days. I also was attending my intense and wonderful Bible College in both the AA and Bachelors Program for the last 5 years. Then I got to have this time off. Yay! I got a chance to “just BE.” I didn’t have to perform, study, or even use my brain to think too much. I was at peace. It was amazing!
The first 3 months were the happiest, most joy filled months ever. Even though I was healing from surgery, I was able to spend time with family and with the LORD. I got to read the Bible, write, rest, go to church and attend awesome Christian Conferences. It was amazing. I got to have my grandchildren over and make short trips to my children’s homes.
Then tragedy struck with the death of my son in law and tore at the very core of my being. The happiness, joy, peace and satisfaction were all replaced with horror, devastation, grief and overwhelming sadness. I didn’t want to “just BE” any more. At times I didn’t even want to be here on earth. I could no longer enjoy anything that I had previously enjoyed. It all seemed so frivolous. The intense pain of grief was overwhelming and I was in a very dark place.
I had been in this dark place a couple of decades earlier when my husband committed suicide but this seemed much worse. My son in law was so young. He did not want to die and he did not take his own life and leave his children in that manner. He had so much more life to live. He left 2 young daughters who adored him and who witnessed his demise. How could life go on after this? How could I be there for my daughter and my granddaughters and the rest of our family. I wanted to fix this whole situation for everyone involved. It was not fixable. I wanted to stop hurting and I wanted them to stop hurting. The pain grew more intense.
Now some months have passed. I have had many, many broken and devastating days and nights and so have my family members. The last few days however have actually been good for me. I am so very thankful for each of the days and portions of days when the pain of grief has been less intense and not so all consuming. I am immensely thankful to my LORD for healing me and my family moment by moment and day by day.
God says in His WORD the Bible, that He will heal us. He bore all of our grief and pain and sorrows on the Cross of Calvary, in addition to all of our sins and sicknesses. The devil, the enemy of our souls, has tried to destroy me and my family once again. But he is a defeated foe. Jesus has already conquered death, hell and the grave when He died for us on the cross. We are VICTORIOUS because of JESUS! God is not finished with us. Jesus will never leave us nor forsake us. This is His promise.
DEUTERONOMY 31:6 BE STRONG AND COURAGEOUS. DO NOT BE AFRAID OR TERRIFIED BECAUSE OF THEM, FOR THE LORD YOUR GOD GOES WITH YOU; HE WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU. (niv)
I have spent the last couple of days in coffee shops doing my Bible studies and reading awesome Christian books. God is really raising up amazing and powerful Christian leaders, speakers, authors and preachers these days, for such a time as this.
I am also feeling hopeful because I am looking forward to the awesome privilege of teaching a Bible study at one of the local missions. I want to take Jesus to those who won’t enter into a church building. I want everyone to know that JESUS is the WAY! He is awesome. If everyone would just go to Him with their brokenness. He takes our fractured hearts and our splintered lives and He heals us. He loves us. I know that my healing will continue as I pour into the lives of others. Personally, I choose to cling to Jesus for my very life. I cannot imagine doing life without Jesus.
I was remembering a beautiful young friend of a friend. She was a teenage girl that I had once visited after she had attempted to kill herself. She was lying in her bed. She was petite and frail and beautiful. She had long, dark, curly hair and large, dark, beautiful, sad eyes. She was sobbing as she shared the reason that she had tried to commit suicide. She said it was because she was NOT AMAZING.
She was a good student at her school. She was a good daughter and sibling in her family. She played sports. She did not do drugs nor have any addictions. She was not immoral. She had so many good qualities that are amazing for a teenager to possess in this day in age. Yet she wanted to die because she felt that she was not amazing. My heart broke for her and for her Mother who was by her side with tears streaming down her face.
If only we could see ourselves through God’s Eyes and love ourselves through the love that He has for us. God loved us so much that while we were still sinners, He gave His Only Beloved, Begotten Son Jesus Christ to die for OUR SINS. Jesus had no sins. He died for us, for me and for YOU. Won’t you accept His Love and His Sacrifice? Please give your life to Jesus and make Him the LORD and Savior of your life now, before it is too late. We are not promised tomorrow. None of us know when our last day on earth will be.
All that you have to do is simply tell the LORD Jesus that you want Him to be the LORD and Savior of your life. Ask Him to come into your heart and to forgive you of your sins. (We all have sinned and we all make mistakes and will continue to do so as long as we still live on this side of Heaven.) Come to Him right where you are in whatever circumstance you currently find yourself in. Jesus loves you too much to leave you in your sin. He will change your heart and give you His desires. You will never regret your decision. You will never be the same. Jesus wants to do life with YOU, with me, with us.
I have to go for now. Until we get to talk again, remember that I love you. I have my globe and map right by where I always sit and I pray for all of you wherever you may be living, all over the world. Most importantly Jesus loves you. God bless you and all of your generations.
JOHN 3:16 FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD THAT HE GAVE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON, THAT WHOSOEVER BELIEVETH ON HIM SHOULD NOT PERISH BUT HAVE EVERLASTING LIFE. (kjv)
2 CORINTHIANS 5:21 GOD MADE HIM WHO KNEW NO SIN TO BECOME SIN FOR US THAT IN HIM WE MIGHT BECOME THE RIGHTEOUSNESS OF GOD (niv)
Now that’s AMAZING! YOU ARE AMAZING!